I posted a short video on my IG page to update those who were interested in my progress following my battle with Stage 3 Colon Cancer. This update included results of the most recent colonoscopy (all good) as well as the latest Signatera® test by Natera, which measures residual molecular disease based on the markers found in my original tumor. Mine was negative, again! As you might imagine, I spell relief, “N-E-G-A-T-I-V-E. I was honored and humbled by the comments left on the post, and it confirmed for me what my purpose is and the choices I’ve made.
If you are interested, here is a link to a YouTube video explaining more about that: Signatera Test
During the course of this experience, I have had many opportunities to make choices, decisions about how I was going to fight, how I was going to live my life, how I was going to use this experience to help myself and others deal with the myriad issues we all face every day. Since 2020 was an unusual year, to say the least, we all had many opportunities to reevaluate our lives, to face the reality, if we chose to, that we were and are but a small part of a greater whole, and the ultimate realization that we have only so much control over our lives. More than once, I was reminded of and recited Reinhold Niebuhr’s Serenity Prayer, which has been a part of my reflection and has guided me for decades.
We each have opportunities to make choices, and the first one starts with the understanding of what we can control. There is no good reason to put any energy toward something that you can’t control. That is wasted energy, and to be sure, there are times when you can ill-afford to waste an ounce of your energy. Once you choose to let go of what you are unable to control, you give yourself permission to give all your energy to those things that you are able to control and over which you have some influence. One of the few things you actually do have control and influence over is yourself, your emotions, your mind, you. And the decisions you get to make may include, “Am I going to fight, to live life, to be grateful for all that is, to love, to treat myself and others with respect, to enjoy every moment of every day, and to understand what matters and to give zero energy to that which matters not?”
I am grateful for all that is. I have learned to love myself and others for who we are. I catch myself judging myself and others, and in those moments of reflection, I learn more about myself and others. I am human, a spiritual being in human form, with human faults, perfect in my imperfection. And I honor myself for all that I have learned, for all the mistakes I have made, and for all the growth that those mistakes have allowed me to experience. I have learned that most if not all of us have everything we need inside of us to accomplish every goal, to reach every star, to climb every mountain, and all we have to do is decide. First we need to believe that we our worthy, that we deserve to have every success, every joy. That is also simply a choice. You can decide to either be miserable, or you can decide to be happy. Choose wisely, because whatever choice you make, you will experience that choice. Every decision, every belief, will manifest in your life. Will you be a victim or will you be a champion for yourself?
I have seen many people who are unable, or unwilling, to make the decision to not only be happy but to acknowledge that they have the power to make that a reality for themselves. It usually boils down to a lack of self-awareness, of self-worth. I lived that, so I get it quite clearly. Yet the truth is that anything we believe that is disempowering or self-limiting, is more often than not based on a lie that someone else told us. What they told us was based on a lie that they believed, perhaps that they had been told about themselves by someone who didn’t know any better or who needed to feel superior by making others feel inferior. You get to decide what your life will be. You get to decide that you will be happy. You get to decide that you will fight to keep yourself healthy, to get healthy if sick, even to be unhealthy and unhappy if that is what you choose. The point is, you get to choose, and you and you alone, can. You have all the power, the power to be or to not be all that you are capable of being. That is how powerful you really are. How cool is that?!